What Life Is:

What is life?
What if I drop out of college?
What is I don't get a very good job?
What's the point of extra money?
Money is only needed to buy food needed to survive, and to pay taxes on the shelter and comforts you have.
Living is living.
Life without extra luxuries is still life.
We all die anyway, so what does our comfort matter?
If I don't own much or eat much, does it matter if I earn more money than I would without education?
Isn't life more than money?
Isn't life more than food?
Isn't life more than shelter?
Isn't life more than luxury?
Isn't life more than work?
Life is enjoying the breath God has given us;
Putting the bodies He made for us to use for His will.
Life is to always show His Love.
Life is to always show His Light.
Life is to always show His Mercy.
Life is to always show His Forgiveness.
Life is to reflect Him in all that we do.

Sometimes I shudder to think of my future, especially one without God.
If I had no job,no education,no friends, and no loving Father;
If I might end up homeless and alone;
If I become handicapped;
If I get cancer;
If even my own family wouldn't want to be seen with me...
I would live content with those situations with God there to lift me up,
but without him.....what would be the point in living?
As long as I have Gods' love, I can withstand anything.
Without it I wouldn't want to live.

I'm in online college classes, and my teacher doesn't like me, so he doesn't grade my assignments, or answer my emails,he is never at the school to talk to,
and I need to take many of his classes to get my degree.
I have finacial aid, and I need to pass all my clases to keep my grant.
Without that grant I have no degree;
Without that degree I have no job;
Without that job I have no money;
Without that money I have no food, home, or friends.

My best friend once was the most innocent, inspiring, nicest,Christ-like person I ever knew....
Until she got mixed up with her stereotypicaly sinful boyfriend.
Now she's suicidal(already tried to kill herself),drinks,is...sexualy unrestrained, and doesn't care about life anymore.

My girlfriend who was my friend since 2004, and girfriend since 2007, lied to me through out all the time I knew her, just trying to get my approval so she could get in my pants, and though she told me(lied to me) that she doesn't want to have sex until her late 20s, she is constantly guilting me about being abstinant(celibate if she leaves me), and always tries to break me.
Our relationship is on a thread,but will not break because she's too attached to me to let go, even if it makes us miserable...



but I will be happy as long as I have my Fathers' love.

"I know what it is to be in need, and I know what it is to have plenty. I have learned the secret of being content in any and every situation, whether well fed or hungry, whether living in plenty or in want."(Philippians 4:12 NIV)

Overcoming Flesh

Many times in my life I have wanted to put off important work, and just lay and think;
Just let everything pass me by without a care in the world.
Thats not how my Father sees fit.
With His encouragment, I always find a way to do those boring tasks.
This flesh hates what is good and loves what is forbiden or sinful.

Sometimes I wish I could fall back into sinful "luxuries" of the dead past;
Why does everyone else get to do whatever they want, as much as they want,whenever they want?
Father has called me to a life of celibacy.
Satan will do anything to break me;
To disgrace my Fathers' wishes;
To set sin before us.
God has taught me how to overcome temptation.
Whenever I feel my mind glaze over and dark thoughts creep in, I pray:
"Satan leave me in the name of the Lord Jesus Christ!"
It was through Jesus that demons were cast out in New Testament days, and His name will always expel any temptation.
The problem is, temptation just trys to re-enter.
One must always be on guard against evil thoughts.

"Be of sober spirit, be on the alert. Your adversary, the devil, prowls about like a roaring lion, seeking someone to devour" (1 Peter 5:8).

I know Father loves me, and I would never hurt Him by doing selfish evils.
I trust Him,and with God always guiding me, we can overcome any temptation.

"You are in me, and I am in you" (John 14:20b)

Introduction

In this evil world, a child was rejected by all, and never knew why.
He was hated without a reason, and everyone turned their heel against him.
He did not know God as a Father, but as a distant judge.
He always tried to live a sinless life, but did not know why, and without greater purpose, he fell into sin.
In 2007, he turned to God and found that his Father was with him all along, waiting for him to realize it was Him guiding him all along.
After His child grew close to Him, God gave His child a task:
To be a Model of Light to all; to show the world Jesus's true ways,
long buried by institutionalised religion in favor of condemntion and judgment.
I am that child, and this is my story.
I am my Fathers' work in progess, and that said, I still struggle with my past materialism and sins that have etched their ways into my very core.
Though my Spirit has been purified, my soul and mind are still being shaped into that of my(our)Fathers'.
This blog is intended to be a help to those who are going through God's devolpement into more "Christly" people, or those who are curious about Jesus, and want to know how true followers/disciples of Christ think.